Ooops! Day 17

I really am rubbish at this whole blogging every day thing so I am really sorry, just getting that out of the way first. It's been a pretty hectic week with just a lot of small things going on, nothing major. I've had my usual sixth form, seeing my dad and Rob and doing homework but as it's coming up to Christmas there is just so much extra to do like wrapping presents and writing/sending cards to everyone. It's a lame excuse but I honestly haven't had much free time at all recently oooh and I had a massive tidy and clear out of my room which took for ever!!! 

Anyway back to the writing challenge.. day 17: "what was the first thing you noticed today when you woke up?"

Now... it's currently half 4 in the afternoon and I can't even remember what I was doing an hour ago so this is tough to remember. I'm pretty sure it was how cold it was! Don't get me wrong, I love winter and it is my favourite time of the year but I cannot stand getting out of bed on a cold winters morning knowing that I have to be at school in under an hours time. It's already too hard to get out of bed, but when it is absolutely freezing it makes the job 1000 times harder. 

This prompt doesn't really give much scope to expand on anything so I will just give you a mini university update too.. 

Ok, so I applied to 5 universities and got interviews for all of them (whoop whoop). The first 4 interviews I went to were Cumbria, Chester, Manchester Metropolitan and Edge Hill and luckily I got offered places at all four. They were nothing like I imagined them to be and everyone there was so nice and made me feel relaxed. Then this time last week I was supposed to have an interview for Liverpool John Moores but I declined it before I even went. I wasn't going to spend money travelling there and back and have a whole day of interviews for a university I knew I definitely didn't want to go to. So now it is time to finalise the two universities that I am securing places at - this is the scary bit. Knowing that a choice that I make now affects my next 3 years is just bizarre. The whole of my life and education so far has been to enable me to get to university and it is now just around the corner. I am so nervous yet so excited at the same time!!

I put my first choice as The University Of Cumbria and my Insurance choice (in case things don't go according to plan) is Manchester Metropolitan. I would be over the moon to study at either of these places as they will both allow be to become a Primary School Teacher and that my dream is getting closer and closer.

Fingers crossed for the exams in the summer (and that I will actually blog for the next few days until my writing challenge is complete)

Adios amigos 

It's nearly Christmas!!

Just two more weeks!! 

Yesterday I watched Elf and it has got me completely wrapped up in Christmas spirit and I now cannot wait for my favourite time of the year. The run up to Christmas is always the best - the Christmas markets, the pretty lights, spending time with family and eating turkey yum!

Last weekend me, my mum and sister all put up the Christmas decorations, lit our advent candle and started preparation for the big day ahead of us. Digging out all the Christmas decorations whilst singing at the top of my voice to all the Christmas classics with my little sister is what symbolises the start of Christmas for myself. It's weird how each family has their own little traditions regarding Christmas. My sister never ever puts the lights on the Christmas tree, that has always been my job and it always will be or else there will be trouble. 

Just one or two Christmassy photos from around my house.. 

Baubles on the tree <3

Santa guards the presents well! 

And the tree is up!! 

Is everyone else in the Christmas spirit yet or is the gloomy rain and school putting a dampener on everything at the moment?

Day 10 - Are you holding a grudge?

Firstly, apologies for not doing the Day 10 writing challenge, I was a bit caught up yesterday with the gym, tidying my room (eww) and seeing the wonderful Rob! But here we go, day 11...

Are you holding a grudge?

The simple answer to this is I think is no.

I have held many grudges in my life before and found that they always drain my mood and dwelling on the issues just makes me feel worse. To be perfectly honest, I don't think holding a grudge gets you anywhere in life. Yes there are experiences in life that I have not enjoyed too well and people will always say or do stuff that gets you down but you have to just move on and let it go. I think since my dad left I have realised that there are much bigger problems going on in the world than someone insulting you and getting you down. I totally understand why some people hold grudges, especially those people who like to bottle everything up and not tell other people but sometimes you have to try and find the positives in the negative situations.

- On another note, I watched Frozen for the first time ever last week and WOW I just cannot get the songs out of my head and have watched it since. I have to thank Beth and Jess for introducing me to this wonderful film and at least now I know what the heck you are going on about when you suddenly burst into random song. How cute is Olaf?! Any of you guys want to get me a pet snowman for Christmas?!

Day 9 - What are you passionate about?

For as long as I can remember I have loved music, whether listening to it or playing it.

When it comes to listening to music I like pretty much anything, except for all the metal and "noise" which has no rhythm to it. Whether it's the current artists in the charts like Olly Murs or Taylor Swift or those that not many people have heard of from a country background.. Blake Shelton, Hunter Hayes, Brad Paisley etc. Country music is something that I am passionate about especially however sad that is to admit. The way that the artists write their songs is just beautiful and the sound of the acoustic guitar is just magical. I find that a lot of the current songs in the charts sound similar and all they seem to talk about is drink, drugs and sex - not exactly what you want your younger brother or sister to be listening to all the time.

As for playing instruments, from the young age of 6 I started learning the keyboard and then this progressed onto learning the piano where I eventually (due to my mum nagging me time and time again) managed to gain my Grade 5. I also learnt the recorder for a short amount of time but never really got the hang of it. But my deepest musical passion is the saxophone. I started playing aged 11 and fell in love instantly. The jazzy brassy sound the saxophone makes is just beautiful and it captured my heart. I learnt up to age 16 and finally quit after achieving my Grade 7 to concentrate of my school work and A Levels. The saxophone was different to the piano. My mum used to have nag me every single day to practice the piano but when it came to the saxophone I would jump at the chance to play and could keep playing for hours and hours until my mouth went numb.

Playing the saxophone has led me to the most amazing times of my life.. how many people can say that they played the saxophone on the main concert stage of DisneyLand Paris? ... I can! How many people can say they have played the saxophone in France, Austria, Germany and Holland? ... I can! 

The palace in Austria I played the saxophone at 

Playing the sax in Holland - How short was my hair?! :O

So yeah, I am pretty damn passionate about music and always will be. Not a day goes by where I don't listen to some form of music or another and who knows maybe I will rekindle my love for my saxophone sometime soon. 

Day 8 - What relationship did you nurture today?

What relationship did you nurture today? (warning, most personal blog yet)

Today I nurtured a relationship with my Mum and have done for the past few weeks/months now one step at a time.

To be honest I have never really been that close to my mum, I have always been a Daddy's girl. But last February all that changed. My Dad decided to walk out on me, my mum and my sister for somebody else and it totally crushed my heart. Within the space of about 10 seconds my whole entire world turned upside down and it killed me. Things haven't been the same since, I don't smile as much, laugh as much and I find it harder to trust people.

It had always been me and my dad, and my mum and my sister. When my dad left I felt alone for a very long time. My mum and sister had this wonderful relationship and I felt like I didn't belong one bit. It's taken a lot to nurture the relationship with my mum and I feel slowly but surely it's getting there. The relationship is nowhere near as good as the relationship was between me and dad but it never will be. My dad meant the absolute world to and I wish I could turn back time and try to stop him going because I miss him so so much. The one good thing that has come about from it is now me and mum do get on, we do have lots of conversations which we didn't have before - it was pretty much just yelling and arguing with each other.

It is weird how much life changes in just a short period of time and that those who you always thought would be there for you can just vanish.

People say it will get easier.. it's been pretty much 10 months now and it hasn't got one bit easier at all. I still cry about it about once a week. Whenever anyone even mention my dad my mood drops drastically and I feel my eyes starting to well up.  I still wake up each morning wishing everything was just a dream, I still get nightmares about my dad telling me he was leaving and I wake up with tears running down my face.

Sometimes I want to talk to somebody about it all but then as soon as I start talking I just clam up and words won't come out of mouth. I wish there was a way to end all the pain around it all and just go back to how I was before.

Sorry this was such a depressing post, I just needed to ramble about it sorry

Molly

Day 7 - what do you wish your job was

Apologies for missing a few days out, I've been really busy recently and also a bit ill too :( but back to the writing challenge and what I wish my job was.

My ultimate career as many people know is to become a primary school teacher and I cannot wait for the day that that dream becomes a reality. This dream is getting closer and closer and knowing that if all goes well I will be studying Primary Education in September makes me so giddy. I cannot wait for what the future holds for me.

However, if we are talking weekend and part-time jobs then working at Primark isn't actually that bad. The hours I work (just 4 on a Saturday) means that I get pretty much all the weekend free yet still earning that little bit of extra money to get me through the month. If I was able to completely pick my own weekend job I would be a waitress at a cute little cafe I think. I've always loved the idea of waitressing but not been a fan of the usual hours in the evening and having late nights which would be stop from going to friends parties and meals out with Rob etc. so waitressing in a cafe would be perfect for me!

What about you guys? If you could pick your ideal job what would it be? 

Day 3 - first person I saw today

Wow, I hadn't realised just how hard this writing challenge would be and I am only up to day 3! Remembering that I actually have to blog even when I have nothing inparticular to write about is a bit of a weird feeling as It's not something I am used to and at the moment I have a massive case of writers block.

Day 3 writing challenge - "who was the first person you saw today?" 

Now today's prompt doesn't really lead me into being able to give a massive description and reason behind it. But the first people I saw were my mum and sister simultaneously. I don't usual see either of them before I go to college as they leave the house much earlier than I do. However, today they both decided to have a loud conversation outside my door whilst I was still sleeping so I very politely (ok maybe not so politely!) told them to shut up, move and let me sleep.. They did thank goodness. Now I don't know about you guys, but when I am awake before anyone else in the house (a very rare occasion I must admit) i try my very best to keep noise to the absolute minimum but obviously my mum and sister just decided to scream the house down at an unearthly hour!! Does this happen to other people to or is it just me?

Apart from family the first person I saw was a builder at my house who had come to repair the roof as some tiles fell off in previous stormy weather just above my room and it's letting all the cold in. Thankfully it's getting repaired just in time for the freezing cold temperatures otherwise I'd have frozen to death before Christmas.

My interview was absolutely nothing to have been worried about yesterday, everything went smoothly and fingers crossed the interviewers liked me and decide to offer me a place :)

Challenge Day 2

Today's prompt is "I really wish..."

At the moment I really wish interviews for university were easier. For those of you who know me, you will know that I am applying to study Primary Education at university next year but to be able to do this I need to go to interviews at each uni, I have 3 interviews done and completed and have got two more to go.
I have an interview tomorrow for Edge Hill and although I have had three already, I am still scared stiff!

Before my first interview I thought I would literally be in a room with one interviewer who would ask me questions about why I wanted to teach and that would be it and I could go back home. How wrong could I have been?

Each interview has made me do a presentation in front of a group of other candidates stating problems in education or a resources I could use in the classroom. If I wasn't scared enough of an interview, having to stand up in front of a group of people and talk was just horrendous. Luckily though, looking at feedback from interviewers my nerves haven't shown and from the 3 interviews I have had I have been given 3 offers for places on next years course.

For my interview tomorrow I need to bring in a children's book and give a 5 minute talk about how I could use it in a lesson as well 3 tests (in English, Maths and Science) as well as a one to one interview. The whole process should take about 3 hours so it is much shorter than previous ones I have been to that have lasted me all day.

So wish me luck, I think this is the toughest university to get into out of the ones that I have applied to! I will let you know how it all goes.
Got my fingers crossed!

Moll xx

31 day blogging challenge

This has been something that I have been wondering whether to do or not for a while now and the motivation to start has come from the beautiful Lily Kate France at www.jolihouse.com (check her blog out it is amazing and I read it pretty much every day and have done for a while!!) and it's to do a writing challenge where you have set things to talk about each day. Some will be done in detail and others just quick posts. This one I believe Lily found on Pinterest so here goes:

Day 1:  "Who is your best friend?"

I have the most amazing group of friends in the whole wide world and they are all special to me but there are two that stand out drastically and they are my boyfriend Robert Danson and bestie Jessica Gillibrand.
They both mean the absolute world to me and I cannot imagine life without them. There have been there through the good and the bad, the ups and the downs and I love them both to bits and all the memories they have given me xxx

"If you live to be 100 I hope to live to 100 minus 1 day so I never have to live without you"- 

Winnie The Pooh

Best weekend

So this weekend has been one of the best by far and I have so many people to thank for it. 

Friday night was the end of mock exams and was also one of my best friends 18th birthday party which was insanely good! What looked like a really rough venue from outside was transformed into a lovely space inside with lights and balloons with an awesome DJ getting people on the dance floor and generally having a good time. It was great to celebrate Beth's birthday with all my favourite people and enjoying the food and drink with everyone. 

And then Saturday night was spent at Wesham Road Runners' presentation evening at the Clifton Arms Hotel in Lytham to celebrate all the hard work and dedication that the runners put in each and every week. It was a lovely evening with a 3 course meal (I had soup, chicken and apple   crumble) and then an evening of dancing to follow. Everyone was dressed up really smartly and looked lovely. I absolutely loved my outfit so thank you to Robs mum for getting it me :D I'm also so so proud of Rob for the trophies he won at the event, he's done brill! 

And then Sunday was mine and Robs annual big Christmas shop getting all the bits and pieces ready for Chrimbo so we headed to Liverpool One for the day and shopped till we dropped and then collapsed in Pizza Express for tea.

All in all in was a fantastic weekend but now I am ready to sleep for a week!